I Was a Teenage Nihilist and achieved absolutely something

Posted in existstentialism, nihilism, Uncategorized on May 14, 2013 by anacarlo

Reflecting on my personal success at achieving zero, I realise it has been a long hard struggle. Sacrifices were made on the journey to complete dissolution. I failed and couldn’t help but to create on the journey and such is my failure.

I have a beautiful daughter, thankfully she belongs to herself (as I last heard from her mum, 1yr ago) and maybe I will see her one day. And here’s an odd one, I once worked in gov’t and brought about a process  by which asylum seekers in the UK found more equitable and anonymous ability to subsist. There is also a trail of paintings and writings that i have discarded across the globe. Perhaps most importantly, though is. My being with people (the names have been changed to protect the innocent) some of whom i have loved very dearly, my presence altering their lives in positive ways.

I have fucking failed as a Nihilist.

It was never my intention,

and I realise now that I should have joined the Conservative Party   

Reconnected

Posted in Uncategorized on May 13, 2013 by anacarlo

Having been away and then having had sporadic internet for an age… Suddenly got connected thanks to a ‘Not Anarchist’ (or maybe he is but doesn’t .. i don’t know or care) who is broadcasting free wifi access over the Valle, the dust, dirt and groves of oranges, lemons and olive trees and also thanks to a solar powered ‘lappy’ Im sort of happy to be back on line so, It’s Tierra y Libertad, the only trouble being keeping the liberated earth out of the afore mentioned Lappy. Already zilched my moby with grit, but unless i was intent on tweeting the antics of the local terrapin populace, it’s no biggie and i’ll scratch one out of the bargain bucket when i get to town next. So. for now it’s- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUEAs9FY9tM

Schrodingers Cat

Posted in Uncategorized on September 12, 2012 by anacarlo

After a spooky visitation in the Upper Swansea Valley I conclude that Schrodingers Cat is definitely dead and seeking vengance  

PC. STINKY

Posted in Uncategorized on April 2, 2010 by anacarlo

oh just a quicky, if  yer sending a copy of SLF’s 1st album to stinky. Make sure you dont get yer timer wrong, no one wants another Greek Tradgedy. Better still just go round his gaff eh.

Happy Easter

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , on April 2, 2010 by anacarlo

Reality Asylum. CRASS, 1978

I am no feeble Christ, not me
He hangs in glib delight upon his cross, upon his cross,
Above my body, lowly me
Christ forgive, forgive?
Holy He, He holy, He holy?
Shit He forgives, Forgive? Forgive?
I? I? Me? I? I vomit for you Jesu
Christy Christus
Puke upon your papal throne
Wrapped I am in the muddy cloud
Of hellish genocide
Petulant child
I have suffered for you
Where you have never known me
I too must die
Will you be shadowed in the arrogance of my death?
Your valley truth
What light pass those pious heights?
What passing bells for these in their trucks?
For you lord.
You are the flag-bearer of these nations
One against the other that die in the mud
No piety. No deity
Is that your forgiveness?
Saint. Martyr. Goat. Billy.
Forgive? Shit he forgives
He hangs upon his cross
In self-righteous judgment
Hangs in crucified delight
Nailed to the extend of His vision
His cross. His manhood. His violence. Guilt. Sin.
He would nail my body upon his cross
As if I might have waited for him in the garden
As if I might have perfumed His body
Washed those bloody feet
This woman that he seeks
Suicide visionary. Death reveller. Rake. Rapist.
Gravedigger. Earthmover. Lifefucker. Jesu.
You scooped the pits of Auschwitz
The soil of Treblinka is rich in your guilt
The sorrow of your tradition
Your stupid humility is the crown of thorn we all must wear.
For you. Ha. Master. Master of gore. Enigma. Stigma. Stigmata. Errata. Eraser.
The cross is the mast of our oppression.
You fly there, vain flag.
You carry it, wear it on your back, Lord. Your back.
Enola is your gaiety.
Suffer little children (to come unto me)
Suffer in that horror. Hirohorror. Hirrohiro. Hiroshimmer. Shimmerhiro.
Hiroshima. Hiroshima. Hiroshima. Hiroshima.
The bodies are your delight
The incandescent flame is the spirit of it
They come to you Jesu. To you
The nails are the only trinity
Hold them in your corpsey gracelessness
The image that I have had to suffer
These nails at my temple
The cross is the virgin body of womanhood
That you defile
In your guilt you turn your back
Nailed to that body
Lame-arse Jesus calls me sister
There are no words for my contempt
Every woman is a cross in filthy theology
He turns His back on me in His fear
His vain delight is that pain I bear
Alone He hangs. His choice. His choice
Alone. Alone. His voice. His voice
He shares nothing, this Christ
Sterile. Impotent. Fucklove prophet of death
He’s the ultimate pornography
He. He. Hear us Jesus
You sigh alone in your cockfear
You lie alone in your cuntfear.
You cry alone in your womanfear.
You die alone in your manfear.
Alone Jesu, alone
In your cockfear. Cuntfear. Womanfear. Manfear.
Alone in your fear. Alone in your fear. Alone in your fear.
Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear.
Warfare. Warfare. Warfare. Warfare. Warfare.
Jesus died for his own sins. Not mine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_HOYk9ED9Q

just a random scratch at utube for a vid but thanks. Oh how i loved Crass and still do oooh. worth checking out is a guy called Jeffrey Lewis, American folky who’s done a 12 crass songs album, luverly now i’m older and deaf. its on spotify huh, but you can buy it too.

err there would be a link here but snot working

12 CRASS SONGS, JEFFREY LEWIS.

Grey Bloc Mobilise to Defend the Welfare State

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , on February 16, 2010 by anacarlo

Just had a call from the Secretary of  NOAPAW asking me if i could organise a convergance space for the South Wales Militant Grey Bloc intending to join the Demo on 10th April Defend the Welfare State and Public Services

It’s hoped, that after ambling from the embankment to Trafalgar Square to listen to the same old same old from the unions ( Dave Prentis deserves a bottling- for bottling it when we were all for coming out with GMB over pay.. no no no… that would have caused too much inconvienience to the govt’ huh),  maybe we’ll take in a show.  Les Mis would be just the ticket.

Any how, musn’t grumble, i’m looking forward to my flat being turned into a hotbed of over 65’s Militancy for the weekend. I think we need to put the zimmer posse at the front, sort of an armourd vanguard for when the pigs wade in, you musn’t forget many of NOAPAW’s membership were on the front line during thatchers battle with the Steel Workers and Miners 26 odd years ago. I think Y Ddraig Du will be given an ironing for a day out.

As the rally’s to be in Trafalgar Sq for a bleeding change, we can nip off for a bit of shopping afterwards instead of slogging back all the bloody way from Hyde Park.

Defend the Welfare State & Public Services.

Saturday, April 10th

Assemble 12pm for 1pm kick off. Temple Place, Embankment

(look for the gap in the swp banners or the Black Dragon if you want to say hello)

Saunter to Trafalgar Square for 2pm rally with tea and biscuits.

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