I Was a Teenage Nihilist and achieved absolutely something

Reflecting on my personal success at achieving zero, I realise it has been a long hard struggle. Sacrifices were made on the journey to complete dissolution. I failed and couldn’t help but to create on the journey and such is my failure.

I have a beautiful daughter, thankfully she belongs to herself (as I last heard from her mum, 1yr ago) and maybe I will see her one day. And here’s an odd one, I once worked in gov’t and brought about a process  by which asylum seekers in the UK found more equitable and anonymous ability to subsist. There is also a trail of paintings and writings that i have discarded across the globe. Perhaps most importantly, though is. My being with people (the names have been changed to protect the innocent) some of whom i have loved very dearly, my presence altering their lives in positive ways.

I have fucking failed as a Nihilist.

It was never my intention,

and I realise now that I should have joined the Conservative Party   

Reconnected

Having been away and then having had sporadic internet for an age… Suddenly got connected thanks to a ‘Not Anarchist’ (or maybe he is but doesn’t .. i don’t know or care) who is broadcasting free wifi access over the Valle, the dust, dirt and groves of oranges, lemons and olive trees and also thanks to a solar powered ‘lappy’ Im sort of happy to be back on line so, It’s Tierra y Libertad, the only trouble being keeping the liberated earth out of the afore mentioned Lappy. Already zilched my moby with grit, but unless i was intent on tweeting the antics of the local terrapin populace, it’s no biggie and i’ll scratch one out of the bargain bucket when i get to town next. So. for now it’s- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUEAs9FY9tM

Schrodingers Cat

After a spooky visitation in the Upper Swansea Valley I conclude that Schrodingers Cat is definitely dead and seeking vengance  

Con Dem government to apply new logo

Its just been leaked from a design consultancy that they have completed a commission to develop a new inter-grated logo for the ConDem Alliance, who have both agreed to ditch the ‘Tree’ and the ‘Dove’ respectively, choosing an image which is more representative of their joint mission.

The all new Con Dem Alliance Logo

PC. STINKY

oh just a quicky, if  yer sending a copy of SLF’s 1st album to stinky. Make sure you dont get yer timer wrong, no one wants another Greek Tradgedy. Better still just go round his gaff eh.

Happy Easter

Reality Asylum. CRASS, 1978

I am no feeble Christ, not me
He hangs in glib delight upon his cross, upon his cross,
Above my body, lowly me
Christ forgive, forgive?
Holy He, He holy, He holy?
Shit He forgives, Forgive? Forgive?
I? I? Me? I? I vomit for you Jesu
Christy Christus
Puke upon your papal throne
Wrapped I am in the muddy cloud
Of hellish genocide
Petulant child
I have suffered for you
Where you have never known me
I too must die
Will you be shadowed in the arrogance of my death?
Your valley truth
What light pass those pious heights?
What passing bells for these in their trucks?
For you lord.
You are the flag-bearer of these nations
One against the other that die in the mud
No piety. No deity
Is that your forgiveness?
Saint. Martyr. Goat. Billy.
Forgive? Shit he forgives
He hangs upon his cross
In self-righteous judgment
Hangs in crucified delight
Nailed to the extend of His vision
His cross. His manhood. His violence. Guilt. Sin.
He would nail my body upon his cross
As if I might have waited for him in the garden
As if I might have perfumed His body
Washed those bloody feet
This woman that he seeks
Suicide visionary. Death reveller. Rake. Rapist.
Gravedigger. Earthmover. Lifefucker. Jesu.
You scooped the pits of Auschwitz
The soil of Treblinka is rich in your guilt
The sorrow of your tradition
Your stupid humility is the crown of thorn we all must wear.
For you. Ha. Master. Master of gore. Enigma. Stigma. Stigmata. Errata. Eraser.
The cross is the mast of our oppression.
You fly there, vain flag.
You carry it, wear it on your back, Lord. Your back.
Enola is your gaiety.
Suffer little children (to come unto me)
Suffer in that horror. Hirohorror. Hirrohiro. Hiroshimmer. Shimmerhiro.
Hiroshima. Hiroshima. Hiroshima. Hiroshima.
The bodies are your delight
The incandescent flame is the spirit of it
They come to you Jesu. To you
The nails are the only trinity
Hold them in your corpsey gracelessness
The image that I have had to suffer
These nails at my temple
The cross is the virgin body of womanhood
That you defile
In your guilt you turn your back
Nailed to that body
Lame-arse Jesus calls me sister
There are no words for my contempt
Every woman is a cross in filthy theology
He turns His back on me in His fear
His vain delight is that pain I bear
Alone He hangs. His choice. His choice
Alone. Alone. His voice. His voice
He shares nothing, this Christ
Sterile. Impotent. Fucklove prophet of death
He’s the ultimate pornography
He. He. Hear us Jesus
You sigh alone in your cockfear
You lie alone in your cuntfear.
You cry alone in your womanfear.
You die alone in your manfear.
Alone Jesu, alone
In your cockfear. Cuntfear. Womanfear. Manfear.
Alone in your fear. Alone in your fear. Alone in your fear.
Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear. Your fear.
Warfare. Warfare. Warfare. Warfare. Warfare.
Jesus died for his own sins. Not mine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_HOYk9ED9Q

just a random scratch at utube for a vid but thanks. Oh how i loved Crass and still do oooh. worth checking out is a guy called Jeffrey Lewis, American folky who’s done a 12 crass songs album, luverly now i’m older and deaf. its on spotify huh, but you can buy it too.

err there would be a link here but snot working

12 CRASS SONGS, JEFFREY LEWIS.

Grey Bloc Mobilise to Defend the Welfare State

Just had a call from the Secretary of  NOAPAW asking me if i could organise a convergance space for the South Wales Militant Grey Bloc intending to join the Demo on 10th April Defend the Welfare State and Public Services

It’s hoped, that after ambling from the embankment to Trafalgar Square to listen to the same old same old from the unions ( Dave Prentis deserves a bottling- for bottling it when we were all for coming out with GMB over pay.. no no no… that would have caused too much inconvienience to the govt’ huh),  maybe we’ll take in a show.  Les Mis would be just the ticket.

Any how, musn’t grumble, i’m looking forward to my flat being turned into a hotbed of over 65’s Militancy for the weekend. I think we need to put the zimmer posse at the front, sort of an armourd vanguard for when the pigs wade in, you musn’t forget many of NOAPAW’s membership were on the front line during thatchers battle with the Steel Workers and Miners 26 odd years ago. I think Y Ddraig Du will be given an ironing for a day out.

As the rally’s to be in Trafalgar Sq for a bleeding change, we can nip off for a bit of shopping afterwards instead of slogging back all the bloody way from Hyde Park.

Defend the Welfare State & Public Services.

Saturday, April 10th

Assemble 12pm for 1pm kick off. Temple Place, Embankment

(look for the gap in the swp banners or the Black Dragon if you want to say hello)

Saunter to Trafalgar Square for 2pm rally with tea and biscuits.

Classwar, The Musical

It appears that classwar is making an impassioned call out, requesting folk to rock up for a Poll Tax riot reunion.

Could it be that the venerable Classwar Federation are restyling themselves as some sort of ‘Sealed Knot’ re-enactment society, the bearded wonder that meets up to refight old Civil War numbers, Ah back in the day, the nostalgia brings a tear to my eye , etc.

I shouldn’t knock em really, this could go on to great things. Properly choreographed  there is every possibility that the Poll Tax Riot Reunion will become a box office smash hit with scenes reminiscent of the ‘Battle of the Terraces Ballet’ in Billy Elliot mashed up with ‘Chim-Chimeny’ from Mary Poppins. They just need to get Webber and Elton on board to score it and they’re away. My moneys on Su-Bo being cast as Thatcher.

I’ll be going anyway, it promises to be a right hoot and I need some cheering up. Hey why not come down too, bring the family and a packed lunch.

The 4th Plinth, J.Caulty

Sunday Morning Footy deemed too prole for St James and Green Park.

Seems that Lord Snooty and Pals have taken umbridge at the old Sunday morning kickabout in two central London parks. Offended by ‘chavvy’ jumpers for goal posts, Friends of  St James Park, who count amoungst them, Lord Rees-Mogg, Allan Duncan MP and that mockney tosser Jools Holland, have requested that the rozzers enforce a ban on games in the parks. Police have been cited, in the Bog Standard, as saying that they will stop any games as, ‘A Matter of Priority.’ Well, we’ll all sleep easy in that knowledge. Now, anyone up for a Flash Mob Croquet Match.

On-Line Cult of Virtual Penguins Ready to Take the World of Tomorrow

My Daughter has just joined an on-line cult of virtual penguins where she is undertaking Ninja training. It seems pretty inocuous stuff at first, you know, preform virtual tasks for virtual coins to buy virtual stuff (Oh so very like the parallel real world) but i have had a wander round the Penguin Republic late at night and have come across some pretty subversive activity, there seems to be a profusion of igloo allnighters, playing an ecclectic mix of trance/techno, drum and bass and funk, doing the rounds, the location and times passesd on clandestinely by penguins wandering randomly through the crowd, whispering PARTY AT MY IGLOO! and also i belive, what can only be described as, a spate of underground fish dealing. The style code for penguins is a case of ‘mix it up propper good’ with penguins adopting a style of dress the Dadaists would have reveared, indeed i met a penguin at a party who arrived wearing a deep sea divers helmet redolant of Salvidor Dali’s address  (Fantomes Paranoiaques Authentiques) to the opening of the 1936 London International Surrealist Exhibition at the Burlington Galleries

Now the World of Club Penguin is powered by those all time great peddlers of schmultz and neo-con values, Disney Corp, but its ace to see all these weens subverting the world that they can influence. ‘Viva la Penguinos!’

Oh if you want a go you can find it by goooglin Club Penguin. thats not an ad but hey having looked around t’internet seems its quite a rave fad or i’m well behind the times huh? So heres a screen shot someones pulled off

and why not, while i’m at it- ‘Getting down at the ‘Frag-A-Go Go’